June 27, 2010
“To leave, not far, just somewhere else”
This is the meaning of these words in French. The card is drawn by an artist named “marie-antoinette” and I chose it to say good-bye to two of my friends who died a few weeks ago. Hence my silence on this blog. I just did not feel like writing, please excuse my absence.
They were friends of mine but they did not know each other. We had been writing to one another for about thirteen years. Hundreds of letters from outside to inside and vice versa. We shared our daily lives, present and past, our joys as well as our sorrows, our regrets and our hopes, our memories, our reflections and just anything we felt like writing about. “Writing – someone said – is like sharing a piece of soul“; nothing was more true than these words in our correspondance.
As fate would have it, both of my penfriends – and friends - left on the same day. No accident nor illness, their death was scheduled. It is very difficult for me to explain how I have been feeling since then. Incredulity and shock would be some of my feelings, for sure. Sadness, helplessness too. And little by little, a feeling of peace for I know they reached the Light that had been so far away in almost half of their life.
Before he left, R. had written this prayer that I wish to share with you on this Sunday morning:
Holy Spirit, mysterious, ever-present yet invisible,
You are the light of our souls even when we are in darkness.
At the beginning, you brought the Son of God into this dark world, the light of life itself.
You led Jesus to his passion and your eternal spirit was there when he was on the cross.
I greatly need your help and light right now.
Help me that I do not close the eyes of my soul to you out of confusion or fear.
Help all those around me who struggle in the same darkness.
Help each of us in our present sorrow, distress and horror,
To know that you are with us, guiding, strengthening with our gifts of courage, wisdom and understanding.
Lift up our spirits even when there appears to be no human hope.